YOU'RE THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENS TO ME .

HI HI! thanks for all e concerns,PPL! im really fine. i gave myself lots of thinking time n made up my mind as well. at least we had all those bitter-sweet memories of 4 YEARS! i take this period as a BREAK,HAVE A KIT-KAT! no r/s for me alrdy. its nt too bad to be single rite? i still can be happy! i wanna change to be a better person,maybe then,things will change!im a strong gal,rem?

my tears are rolling again~ someone save me.. ....

If I
Should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go
But I know
I'll think of you every step of
the way

And I...
Will always
Love you, oohh
Will always
Love you
You
My darling you
Mmm-mm

Bittersweet
Memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So good-bye
Please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you
You need

And I...
Will always love you
I...
Will always love you
You, ooh

[Instrumental / Sax solo]

I hope
life treats you kind
And I hope
you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy
and happiness
But above all this
I wish you love

And I...
Will always love you
I...
Will always love you
[Repeat]

I, I will always love
You....
You
Darling I love you
I'll always
I'll always
Love
You..
Oooh
Ooohhh

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1:00 AM

as many of u all know,yaozong n me are no longer tgt. i had e BEST r/s with him. he stays in my heart and i'll never forget him. i believe perhaps,in e midst of our lives in e future,we'll find e importance of each other. whether,THEN,is it too late or not,it's up to GOD to decide our fate. he has given me e most WONDERFUL n HEARTLESS r/s i ever had,but i never regreted being with him. thru-out this entire r/s,we grew in maturity n faces every obstacles tgt. i still love him like 38 months ago when we first started out. frankly speaking,i did asked for patch but he dodnt want. i was so into depression and my mood is reali scaring me as well. i felt i lost a very important person-someone i cant live without. adding our 6mths of courtship,yaozong n me were hand in hand tgt for ard 4years. thinking abt myself losing someone so close to me of 4years,i couldn't control my tears.having me to say them out here,not to gain sympathy or critism,but let all of u ppl out there know,it is really time to cherish ur every loved ones. always give them e chance to show u how they can reali change jus for e r/s. i wish all of u all happy n may all r/s be blissful.

to yaozong: i guess u might c this one day. i dont wanna force you like what i did just now. u n i know frm that day we broke up that we lost something so very close,though u seems happier to me but i hope in time to come,u will look back n recall our everything. im still always here for you n i forever do. I LOVE YOU-straight from my heart. GOD BLESS.

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12:10 PM

im at my mum's office now.. here is damn damn cold!!! i'm freezing! e aircon is jus metres away frm me. going to toa payoh later.. ytd,ard 2am,jie n me went to vivocity n armed CITIBANK door. jie soo angry lah cos night shift never lock. den cisco called her. luckily gt me to go with her..i alrdy applied PIMPLE cream lah!! KUKUBIRD! LOL.. lesson was sooo fun today.. we played casino games like KENO(bingo) n CRAPS. i wanna work in e year 2009 casino in SINGAPORE! i wanna be dealer! LOLLL.. e uniform damn cool! bye~

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7:18 PM

im having a terrible headache now. didnt went for church service today..too tired. i slept till 3.30pm today. i just dont wanna wake up,i jus wanna hug my feifei n slp. my stomach has been pain for 6days alrdy. y must i always get sick when i lost you??? my eyes sore! ate medicine n den meet my jie n went to bugis to eat. jie treat me go V8 cafe to eat. nt bad e food. very traditional. she bought a pair of jeans n some stationeries.. while i bought nothing. i wanna save money. maybe i would need lots of money soon~ told jie abt my things n she said she will find one day to talk to him. jie always love me alot but she also didnt much side me- she was on e balance side. i took some crazy pictures again at hme n at BYSI shop.. n will upload aft this.. tmr's lesson of 2mths will be from 2pm to 6pm. i will officially be wrking part-time in my clothes'shop on sat n sun onli while concentrate on my studies frm mon to fri. no more late nights.i realised aft this thing happen btw my bf n me,i wanna stay at hme. watch tv,use com,tok to my mum,study n accompany my feifei. occasionally go out with my parents or sister or my frens for coffee. no more chalets,clubbing,smoking,drinking or wadsoever. i wanna take up baking course also! my birthday,im guess i'll be alone. i hope my 2005 n 2006 birthday wishes will come true cos i'll be making e same wishes as these two years this yearr n yrs ahead~ i wanna treat myself to something on my birthday. maybe a 2kg cookies n cream cake which i'll eat all by myself? a 1kg ice cream? a HUGE teddy bear? 18 donuts? 180 satays? buy 18 stuffs which are $18 each? LOL! i want to be all by myself on my birthday frm 12am to 1159pm. forget all unhappiness on that day! birthday is just e most impt event of my life. aft which is also 39th anni.n his birthday. i'll still do wad i promise to him. im not sleepy now but headache..stop here! photos up next..

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12:55 AM

am i really HAPPY?

=) or =( ???

im really afraid of something.

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1:13 AM

i'm NO LONGER a SMOKER.

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12:51 PM

life's e same today. school in e morning n work in e afternoon. nite at hme n blogging now. nothing much! Zong n me are cutting down on our expenses unless under other circumstances. less branded stuffs,less shopping,less candle-lit dinner; more maggie mee,more 'wear-back',more 'recycling'! LOL. in this way,wishes of bike,car,house,career,marriage,babies,daily neccessities etc.can WISH COME TRUE! wish us luck,people. zong n me went thru courtship for 5mths 28days and we are in a relationship for 3yrs 2mths n 3days;since 14.feb.04 n still counting~ in this hard core r/s,we went thru many ups n downs. ppl close to me shld noe. thank GOD he gave me great level of determination n preseverance. thank GOD he gave zong good strength n faith. may all my past sins be forgiven to love n be loved by my love ones. i hope e obstacles ahead will be nv too hard for us to determine again. it's not easy to maintain a long r/s. trust me when u n ur parnter reached e 3rd year or more. my elder sister is my greatest example. i'll always love him; cos i follow GOD's words. alrite,stop me frm being over-emotional - i might cry. LOL. cherish ur love ones,every single one of u out there! believe yourself,trust ur instincts n nothing will go wrg. IM LEADING GOOD LIFE NOW. my birthday is coming! presents! this yr will be a simple one. no clubs no chalet or wadsoeva. CUT DOWN,rem? maybe jus a simple dinner treat to my close frens n i want to be at SENTOSA e whole day! i wanna play n explore every single section of sentosa! though have to pay alot! BUT I DONT CARE! aft that day den save! LOL. i wanna spend with my hubby only! LOL. zong n my b'day plus our mthly anniversary are THREE days conseuctively! SHIOK MAN! i dun wan go school! LOL. HAHA. my laptop have to wait too till my birthday for my credit card application. car licence awaits my arrival! i not greedy~ by 30 yrs old,i must have all e 'C's!!! LOL. i like family car cos i wanna have 4babies. xin ku le,STEPHANIE. wei nan ni le,YAOZONG. LOL. byebye. sleep!

thank GOD i've found YOU,tan yaozong!

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10:58 PM

seriously,i can really blog alot of different stuffs abt me in a DAY! LOL. now,it's photo-seeing time! snap while using e com jus now. LOL. 'enjoy' there's one which is my sleepy FEIFEI!

MY FATTY FEIFEI;cannot live w/o!

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7:19 PM

ENJOY! just wanna let u all hear some of my favourite songs!
click LAUNCH STANDALONE if you wanna hear only e song to prevent my blog's song tgt with it.

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2:35 PM

HELLO. updating time! LOL.ytd nite was a 'quite' fun day.. gary's birthday. augustine n me went to zong hse to meet him den we took a cab to tiong bahru plaza to buy cake. raining n we waited for time to pass becos we were early. in e end,frm e actual destination of marina south we went to near tiong bahru market to have our dinner. $139. aft that,got into 4 separate cabs we went to orchard partyworld. smoke drink n sing! shiok! gary went to his hotel wher he worked to buy liquor. one of it is placed into my bag! LOL. zong anyhow mix mix mix. less than 35mins,all finished le. gary's fren vomitted n it went all ard e place! ! e entire right side of e room is filled with vomit! seriously,i calmly went to e toilet n vomit also. 4 times straight. aft that,i went crazy again! felt soo enegrtic aft that! LOL. gt 1 part i very angry! dont wanna say this. becos of a stupid remote control! we had alots of fun! but gt one part,eugene cry. hais..becos of eugenia. he cried till very bitter. all came to comfort him. i managed to make him smile a few times. i sang his favourite song to him! zong again kept asking me happy today? happy? LOL. happy lah! WAHAHA! augustine last part so high lah! sang so loud n happy!! we all sooo high too! LOL. aft party world,went orchard tower eat indian food. i drank milo dinosaur only. wore menghua's cap;cos i too tired alrdy.. eyes closing. they went to play CS n DOTA,i sat beside zong c him play. i kept kaopei i tired. cos i reali am la! then he ended the game n everyone went hme aft that.. it was 4plus am then. went back zong's hse to sleep. v.tired. we changed n slp alrdy.he woke up at 8.30am for soccer. i took off n continue my sleep.. actually he wanted to buy food for me,but he went to cut hair;alot of ppl. so,mama n me went down to pack food. watch tv n slack at his hse. 9pm went hme,did my hw,iron my uniform n blogging now. weather is very hot!! upload some pics for u to see..ENJOY!

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12:25 AM

DEARdear,HAPPY 38th MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!

he's my BOB! im his BOOB! LOL.
i am his KOKO. he is my KUKU.

lalalalala~ it's gary birthday too, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

going out! going out! steamboat! ktv! drinking! weeewee~
of cos i'll update.....on e happenings n pictures will be right here on http://uniQue-devOtion.blogspot.com

BYE~ REMEMBER ME.

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12:50 AM

this is wad i wrote in my notebook while wrking today. transfering to my blog as a post. there we go~ unable to wake up this morning but somehow i was still early for school.lesson was VERY boring today. i feel like sleeping lah! aft school went to buy lunch then took a cab to work. late!time is sooo slow today. im sooo damn sick of wrking..anw,i finally receive my set of dress from THERAPY. mum's gonna alter for me. tmr is teckwei's birthday n zong's fren birthday celebration too. zong's living good life now. sleeping so song at hme;while im wrking like hell for a stupid boss. HAHA. im gonna resign;SICK of it! i wrk so many sales job,first time i cant tolerate my boss! zong jus now 3G with me again while im in e cab. the taxi driverthought i siao lah!! LOL. i realised my exams are on JUNE! 4books = 4examination papers. i'll be taking 4/10 subj. first for e 1st semester while another 6 for e next semester! thats it! 1 book got 250pages. which means i have to read 1000 pages for e first semester. plus memorise k? FU.CK! 2mths.. NONONO! its 55days!!!! oh my! i cant afford to fail!topics are getting harder n harder each day. i cant even think of getting MC alrite? becos 1 day = 1 chapter. FREAKSO.! the whole course is learning about the ENTIRE hotel n casino INSIDE-OUT. im going crazy soon!!! now i understand y it is a 1 year course cos it is soo damn pack n fast! it's like a gift package!!

alrite,STEPH-y,RELAX!!!

i need a glass of milk now. n e voice of my bf.
to be continued....

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10:51 PM

to ppl who are offended or felt 'funny' abt my previous post abt marriages,im NOT sorry. i felt you n i have our own kind of views. so,ppl who tag me or yet to tag but going to,if you dont like reading my posts den dont even click onto my blog anymore so that u wun be curious or feel funny abt things going on in my blog. it's jus so simple as ABC!! of cos u ppl out there can have ur own views as well.. shout them out in my tag but nv nv critise my views. everyone lives to have their own views; how we react to it is impt. take care,people. i too have more to learn for. let's all make effort to do so. LOVES.

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12:59 PM

jus came home aft a long day. didnt went to wrk n church today cos i was very tired. woke up n blog n aft that quarrel with zong abt something aft that ok alrdy..decided to meet. LOL! met at his hse den took a cab to bugis.. walk walk but didnt buy anything. better dun buy..later angie scold me again!! LOL. saw alot of clothes which far east also gt sell. wa! i 4days+ tmr 5days nv wrk alrdy. tues wrking~ SIAN. i reali hate my boss! went to mos burger to have our dinner.. snap some pictures-it will down below~ aft that zong went swensen to buy me a ice cream. very nice n delicious! LOL. very difficult to bite. LOL. took 7 to PS,i brought e ice cream up e bus i scared lah;zong faster block me den i ran up! continue our gai gai... this KUKU yaozong dunoo eat wad medicine keep biting n kiss me today. i slap him lah! LOL! crazy guy! went mu'ee to buy hp pouch n hp keychain. walked to POA..saw a bag i like alot..! $89. zong wanted to buy for me but i refused to take. he called me nt to nag sooo much! LOL...i kept saeing i like i like aft we left e shop den he said..u rather buy a GUESS bag for me. pay another few dollars den got brand de. got meaning. went to GUESS shop,saw a bag but too small. no big de. so,i decided on e 14th,i'll most probably want him to get me e POA bag. i like it! very my style. 14th;our anni. we are going KBOX! LOL. went back his hme aft that for steamboat. super nice. i ate steamboat frm his hse for 2days alrdy. SHIOK! LOL. tmr gonna wake up at 6.30a,. i gt 6hrs to slp onli! meeting zong tmr for lunch.. see you baby!

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12:11 AM

i H.A.T.E fakes. dont understand y people want to fake marriages. isn't marriages suppose to be filled of happiness n true love-or even long duration of r/s to understand e needs of both parties? i felt disgusted when some ppl treat marriages as something to envy n be jealous abt. THINKING time comes again: how long have u 2 be tgt? how old are you this year? have u gt enough financial ability? just to ask this 3 questions and it can push u right down to e drain- not to ask the even more hardcore questions. i too tot abt marriages with my bf- e only ans we both decided on were: make our r/s of a longer period; wait till we are older;money is first priority to think about. u stupid ladies did not think abt all these. seriously speaking,i dont fancy n admire u all but pityness comes in hand. one must know how to love him/herself. if u dont,noone will. think abt it. whether is it a prank or not,a joke or not,it's defintely not something to play with. in life,somethings might ever go wrong..but dont becos of that decided ur heart n ur soul to ur current bf. marriage is a life-time committment. u only gt 2 endings in the entire period: HAPPY or UNHAPPY. i believe i will have happier happiness than u ladies; all becos i THINK abt it.

it might just be a wishful thinking in e end....

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2:20 PM

alrite! im here again. today's GOOD FRIDAY,went to church in e morning with my mum.. church today was in e mess. everybody was sooo damn blur. so annoying! i bought bread frm e entrance of e church(for charity).zong went to sao mu too. we're both busy today! LOL. did not go to malaysia today. radio said,very heavy jam this morning. we cancelled. went jurong pt aft that. zong went back his ah gong hse n den vivo with his family. today both of us e FAMILY day! LOL. treat my mum lunch at BENTO cafe. quite nice to eat. while eating,zong suddenly video call n 3G with me. i let him talk to my mum. LOL. i miss him lah,thank god,i can see him thru video call. e hp i hear his voice very disconnnected feel; his bluetooth set machim old one. tmr i wanna call n complain!!!! LOL. bought a pair of shoes today. yeah! mum like a wallet at espirit,i copied e code no. tmr ask zong's aunt to help me buy. went value shop n bought funny funny stuffs. a small majong set for JIE. took 198 frm boon lay intercahnge to last station- bukit merah interchange. power! our butt was like- FLAMING! LOL. went NTUC to buy household stuffs n den aft that took a cab hme. very tired when i reached hme-i lay on e bed n ZZzzZZz~ LOL. zong went to play soccer n i wnet online to dl themes. but i dunoo how! must ask adeline. zong's aslp alrdy. im quite tired but dun feel like sleeping.. maybe i wrking on sunday.. see how. going out with zong tmr. but dunoo wher to go. spore so sian!! maybe go walk walk-romantic romantic. LOL. nth much to blog alrdy~ show u some pics! HAHAS'

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11:30 PM

went to school in e morning aft which went hme to slp afew hours den met zong at his hse. chi chat awhile den he went to bath n we headed dwn to toa payoh. i bought hp! N6288 rather than N7390. my sister used to use N6280 but aiya nvm lah! i jus wanna 3G with zong. LOL. i made e salesman very pec chek,cos he's my mum's fren den i kept asking for free things! in e end he gave me extra MB memory card,casing,cover clean,lucky draw- zong draw it n we won a number of things! towel,shampoo n radio! soo cute lah! i bought a bluetooth headset,e man gave me cheaper. zong's happy abt it! went to town aft that n zong treat me eat swensen. very full! walked dwn to cine,went revoltage n bought a cardigan. zong said nice! so,i shouted: NEW ONE PLS! hahas. we also watch movie; SHOOTER. not bad. went hme aft that. very tired. zong gotta go SAO MU n tmr's good friday! i need to go church. maybe going malaysia aft that with mum n zong. see how first! BYE~

i love YAOZONG!

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1:22 AM

i'm OFF today. im ade's shop now.aft school,went to bank in my cheque den went ms find her. very long nv c her alrdy! looking at hp just now n we decided to buy e same hp soon. N7390. i'll be buying first;this thrus.zong gonna acc me..ade next week. zong went to malaysia..later coming back. meeting his mum n family go geylang eat later. hopefully,zong can reach singapore soon to join us. here very cold! LOL. today i wasnt late for school.exactly 9am reached. gt hw to do..one 20marks question. 23rd april to june mid,i can onli work on sat sun,cos lesson at 2pm to 6pm. SIAN! i need money to buy laptop! see how lah! i gt no choice!!! this fri GOOD FRIDAY;maybe going malaysia with my mum n zong. nth much to blog nowadays.

i wish zong is e right one for me. i love him. 23years old i want to get married;now too early.. as long as we are happy,status matters no more. wish me best. =)

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6:19 PM

ok. today is e first day of school! quite ok. no complaints. i was 10mins late! LOL. tmr need to wake up earlier. aft school still went to work.i gt my pay today. HAPPY! i very tired now! zong very funny today. i love him! ok..nothing much to blog.. i want to go study alrdy. BYE~! tmr off. going ms to find adeline. LOL. miss her face. LOLLLL

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10:28 PM

off day today! finally,went for my mass service. almost couldnt wake up,but i promised mum i'll be going;so,no choice! it's palm sunday today! mum n me went to collect new palms. threw e new ones away~ went to toapayoh aft that,bought a pair of shoes,my wonderful;which makes my hair soOOoo smooth e asience shampoo,make-up remover n olay products. mum bought herself a loreal retival lift-up (something like that lah,e GONG LI advertisement.)and 2 bottles of honey! she also bought a new iron for e hme and jie n me have to pay her $20 each. went to my mum's fren hp shop..tested SE W880i,NO GOOD! so,i maybe buying N6300,but no 3G. =(. took a cab hme,went hme to sleep awhile den met zong. went down with jie to c her fren bike. CLASS 2,K5 bike. nice! went vivo with zong aft that. shop shop. he gave me $100. surprisely we didnt buy anything!e shorts zong wanted no more alrdy,sooo,i am buying another thing for him. went to m1 shop,saw N6300 again n N6288,i'll be buying one of it next week. zong too! den i can 3G with him in class! LOL. went to BEST to see laptop. i'll be buying VAIO C25 soon. zong n me decided to pay by instalment. i jus told mum n she said y dont she pay for me first den i every mth pay her,at least no more pay more tax installment. she will be applying for another credit card,so shen help me pay first. i'll discuss with zong later. went coffee bean,but i dun dare to sit on e chair anymore. LOl. wentfood republic to eat beehoon n wu xiang. he kept giving me eat n eat lah,den he said he still hungry! i was damn full lah! cos all e food all he give me alrdy! LOL~!!!! i so fat living with him...HAHA. took pictures den tok awhile den took a cab hme. v.tired. tmr start starts!! my mum gave me a small hongbao for good luck. LOL.lame. hope tmr gt new frens! i v.nervous actually. zong is worry abt me liking another guy,but i kept quiet. i believe actions are louder than words. i jus love him. he noes but he kept saying those things. LOl. really is a KUKU BIRD! just iron my clothes,prepared my bag stuffs. aft school still need to go wrk. will be damn tired i tel u~ lik very long nv c my adeline n angie alrdy. miss em! i am looking forward to many new stuffs~ my laptop n hp esp.! LOVE EVERYONE in e world! (foes excluded). LOL. slping soon.. gotta wake up at 7am tmr! BYEBYE.

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11:30 PM